I am Home Again

Hi Everyone, After being in the Hospital a month, I can came on the 27th of Dec. It sure felt good to be out & back in the small room at the dorm. I never knew I was that sick when I went to the clinic on Nov 28th, as they rushed around trying to get an IV going in my arms. They got 2 of them going & before I know it I am being taken to Flagstaff Hospital by helicopter! I always wanted to ride in one, but this was not the way I thought it would be. I Don;t remember much of the first 2 1/2 weeks in the ICU unit. Sunni did take a picture of me, but after I saw it, my first thought was.. Is that really me? It was scary looking to me when I looked at picture, I can't imagine what it looked like if you had come to visit me. I don't remember seeing allot of you who did come to see me. I do remember my 3boys & sister being there & thinking wow, someone must be really sick for them to all be here, not realizing it was me that was so sick. I was in a coma for almost 2 weeks, & I do have a few profound things that someday I hope to write more about. I realized the creator still has something for me to do.. which is why i came back. The coming back was the hardest thing I have ever done.. Jason, had given me a blue penguin bird,which I saw first thing in the morning & it was the last thing I looked at night. I started calling it the "Blue Bird of Happiness " this bird ended up giving me the courage to get up every morning & do whatever I could to get better. When I finally got out of ICU & into a room I made sure I could see this Blue bird. I still have a long way to go in my recovery, but when I think of where I was just a few weeks ago, I have come a long way. I think now I am more aware of how grand life can be.I believe I have learned allot thou this experience . I know I have a few things I need to draw & write about , but right now when i think about them or try to talk about them, tears come to my eyes, because the thoughts are so moving to me ,so close to me,I just think I need more time to get the thoughts in order. It is very hard to cry with oxygen being blown up your nose because your lungs aren't strong enough to get what you need from the air. Well I hate to say it but it is time for to lay back down. I listen to the body & when it says I am sleepy I listen & so OK, lets go rest now. thank you to all those who came to visit me while in the hospital &those that have helped since I have been home. I have been truly blessed with great friends & family.